If I had the chance to go back in time as the person I am today and speak to the person I was before, it would be such a satisfying and emotional moment for me. The best thing about getting older is looking back to see the progression that you've made, if it's all positive of course. 4 years has been a big transformation and a self progressive journey. At only 17 years old, the awareness, and wise attitude of mine surprises others and honestly surprises myself because not many my age outlook and mindset is like mine. . . . . . .
Lately I've been feeling such a mixture of feelings that just leaves me to feel scattered.
Lost, confused, betrayed, heartbroken, dissatisfied, disappointed, despondent, lazy, unorganized, etc. Yes those are probably all the most negative feelings that I'm enduring but I am happy and satisfied with all that I'm going through right now, even kind of satisfied with all the negative because I know it's all but a learning experience that helps me EVOLVE. I need to overcome all these negative spirits in my life because its taking a toll on all that I use to care about, especially School. Its my senior year in High School and its said to be the best year of your high school life... um I don't think so. It's almost about to be considered the worst academically. I just look to keep my head up and stare ahead because there's nothing that will discourage me at this point to get where I need to go in life, bumps in the road happen and I'm enduring a huge one at this point but when you fall you get right back up, one step at a time. I tend to try and skip steps but this is the time where Im going to take my time and progress. - sabla`